I wish *Blogger* would e-mail me when you guys update... must go sleep now. Promise of coffee tomorrow *crack addict eyes* It's my anti-drug ^^

ps. nsecrtjn
No Sex Ever Comes Round Ten Jumping Ninjas
lol that's all I've got! Brain's a wee bit fried ^^

pps. oh you're kidding me! 'Ninjas' is a word! It's not like 'Oh look a he-' wait, maybe it is just ninja. Fucking plurrals.

ppps. take it back. They don't even know what the fuck a 'ninja' is. I knew I shouldn't trust it!@

Okay, Webb.

If you care at all about your wife, you will cut off relations with your ex. If you care at all about your *ex* wife's feelings, you will cut off relations with her. You're leading her her on, however unintentionally, and hurting her, and more importantly, hurting Deborah in the process. That isn't right. Everything I know says you're a good guy, and you've got the best intentions, that's why I feel like I have to say this. Let Janie go. Friendship won't help her, or you. It certainly won't help your marriage. Let her go.

That is all.

I don't think he's doing anything bad. But... he's trying make her happy *and* you happy, and those two things don't really go together. He can't do both without fudging something in the middle.

Don't get into it. Don't be her. Because the more you act like that, the less Webb will listen to your concerns, the less you'll trust each other. Talk to Webb, tell him this whole thing isn't about you being paranoid or jealous - it's about the fact that *no one* is in a healthy relationship right now. You can't trust him because he's lying to spend time with Janie. He's only lying because he doesn't want to upset you, but it's still wrong. And spending time with Janie, *ESPECIALLY* behind your back, makes her think she has a chance with him and gives her power over both of you. And Janie can't move on or have a healthy relationship of her own if she's in a power struggle with you. She won't win so there's no point. She needs to move on, and he needs to make that clear. Crystal fucking clear.

So I know that you aren't supposed to hate people...but I'm human, and I do things that you aren't supposed to...hell as far as the Bible is concerned, I'm going to hell in a handbasket, so one more thing one the list isn't going to hurt anything. I fuckin hate Webb's ex-wife. She is the most selfish, immature, and jealous person that I have ever even HEARD about and I would really love to be locked in a room with her for an hour or two. Is that bad? I figure if theres anyone on this Earth that I can be completely honest with, it's you two, and I know you'll tell me if I've completely lost my mind.

So I have the MySpace thing...I like it, there's a lot of people from high school that I lost contact with and I can talk to them there. I keep to myself, don't bother anyone. I told y'all about the messages she had put on Webb's page...yada yada yada, Anna figured out my insane ranting...Well, Webb saw here in the store a few weeks later and told her to stop all that bullshit. So, ok, I think it's all done. But this is still something I'm having a lot of trouble with. I just don't get it guys, I love him...I really do, with all my heart and everything I have, but I don't completely trust him. I don't know why I did it, but I looked at the text message records on his phone. I know, I know...completely fucked up and I shouldn't have invaded his privacy like that...but I did. There were messages from her...apparently her and Webb were supposed to hang out, and go to dinner, and drinks afterwards...The same night he and I went to the fair in Morgan City. Needless to say I hit the roof, thinking that if I wouldn't have talked him into taking me to the fair, he would have found an excuse to go out and meet HER! So I asked him...I made a beeline inside where he was sleeping and asked him where the hell he was supposed to be Friday night, and after he took a few minutes to wake up, he kept telling me he went out with me and he didn't know what I was talking about. So I asked him if he was supposed to be with Janie and he asked me where I heard that from. I told him not to worry about that, we'd deal with it later, but to tell me the truth. He told me that she had been bothering him to go out with her when he's in from offshore and he thinks she still in love with him (I've told him that a million times, but nooooooo) he didn't want to be mean and outright tell her hell no, so he told her yes, that they would hang out, knowing that he was going to stand her up, and he figured this way, if he did that enough, she would give up and stop trying. To me, that sounds like bullshit...but why? I have no reason not to trust him, he's never done anything to make me disbelieve him...I don't get it.

Yesterday, I got a request on MySpace to add a person named Nikki. I only know one Nikki, my new Sis-in-law, and she was already one of my friends so I didn't know this person. I looked at her page and there are a LOT of suspicious things on there and my gut feeling is telling me that it's Janie, under a different name, trying to gain information, or trying to get me to start some kind of drama. I get messages from this "Nikki" and I decided to play along until I was sure. Apparently, according to her, she saw the pictures of Webb on my page, and knew him from somewhere. The out of the blue, she says, "Omg! He was married to a girl from New Iberia! One of my friends knew her, she's a bitch!" So, I'm thinking that she wants to see if I'll talk about Janie. I haven't said anything yet, but it pisses me off more and more everytime I think about it. Am I crazy? Should I just trust him and leave it all alone? Or investigate? Help!

Love Love Love

My foot hurts :( DAMN YOU STICK!! *curses*

ps. wtf with the 'word verification'? Why is there a handicap symbol next to it? WHY!?!?