Hahahaha...for some reason when I saw that you had posted, the "Star Wars" theme song started playing in my head. It was like, "Yes! We have contact!" I know I'm an idiot.

I hate that you've been feeling alone. Though I know we're all well acquainted with that feeling. I can't remember why you said Webb was out in Cali. I know his family's there, but was it that he was trying to get things set up for y'all? How have things, aside from y'alls separation, been going?

side note: God does not the throw excrement. LoL. The devil does, but because we know God can solve everything we blame him for not taking the excrement away. It doesn't work the way we want it. Fall of man. Suffering. Forgiveness. Many things. I know it's huge to deal with, but you've gotta face him one way or the other.

Any who. I'm kind of annoying myself with my pretentious, upbeat rhythm. I don't know if you can feel my rhythm right now but I think a part of my brain was trying to convince me I was happy. Maybe I was there for a second but I caught on to what my brain was doing. What I just said was ridiculous.

Nothing's really happened to me other than me taking Dutch to the doctor, which wore us both out physically and emotionally. I haven't been asleep, well..in the bed asleep, since Wednesday. I slept a little yesterday in the car with my mom though. We weren't both sleeping in the car. She was driving. Another ridiculous moment. Maybe I wouldn't sound so scatter brained if I got some real sleep.

I went through the new Lucky magazine last night. I've never really looked through one and used those little yes/maybe tabs for the pages. I felt unusually girly for some reason.
So that's how uneventful I've been.
Love.

p.s. I have a feeling Anna might claw my head for asking this, maybe not though, but do you guys ever watch Bill O'Reilly..The O'Reilly Factor. Mom and I are addicted. The only reason I thought you might claw me is because some people don't like him so much. I know Deb is a pretty mellow person politically. Not that you and I are insane. Whatever. Forget me. I'm making crap sense.

I read both of your posts, Buggy, and there was one phrase that kept replaying over and over in my head, and it was, "It's really good to have her back."

I've missed you guys so much. I know that everything has been crazy lately for all of us and somehow we have a tendancy to just forget about that wonderful invention called a phone, but I never stopped thinking about you two...I love ya'll more than anything!

Whitty, I admire you for your beliefs, and that after everything...you still have them, thats an accomplishment above any accomplishment made by anyone. No matter how much shit God throws at you, you still believe in him, and trust in him...thats something a lot of people, including me, couldn't do.

I've been feeling really alone a lot. Its three months today since Webb's been in California, and I miss him like crazy, but I had just thought that maybe things would be different if I had talked to y'all all summer, or if we had seen each other...maybe I wouldn't feel this way, because I never feel alone when I know that all I have to do is log on here, or call, and one of my girls will make me feel better, or maybe I can make one of you feel better and everything will be ok.
I don't even know if any of this is making sense, but I really miss y'all, and hopefully we can stop our busy lives for just long enough to talk to each other. I need my girls...

Love. Love. Love.

Mom and I were watching a thing on National Geographic about asteroids, and that kind of thing gets me thinking. Mostly about how those things, mainly the destruction of dinosaurs, coincide with God's plan, pressing to discover things similar to that in the bible (which I don't yet know if there is, besides the flood, but I plan on asking someone), etc.
Then I started thinking about emptying words of their meaning. Just about how we name everything, putting it in a list/category, trying and grasp what it is, how it works, what it means about the past, present and future. Wrapping my head around everything that we've "created" that's really nothing of our own creation.
I wish I read more. I'm satisfied when I do read. I feel smarter. :) Though it's difficult for me to do it because of OCD and other issues that intrude on my brain while trying to learn something new. Hence why I got the bible on dvd. I thought that would help. And it has. But anyway...I admire how you read so much Anna. You read like it's going out of style and I've always wished I could do it.

My mom and I hit a dog on our way to church. I realize I'm starting to sound like a crazy holy roller, talking on and on about the bible and now church. hehe. But we hit a dog and needless to say I was beside myself over it. It didn't have a collar. My mom went to a house and asked if anyone knew of a dog like it around. They said no. I stayed by her side until she stopped breathing. She had shallow breathing ever since we pulled her off the road. I was hysterically yelling at mom to call an ambulance, call somebody for goodness sake. I rubbed one of her ears the whole time telling her how sorry I was. Right now I'm so disgusted that I couldn't have done something more for that baby. I wanna cry some more, and I probably will.
I prayed a whole lot then. Asking God to please help me. I knew though that it was just the way. I want to know if animals go to Heaven. I hope so. I wanna see my Freeway and Dutch again someday.
I don't believe we should really have cars. We should probably only use them for long haul travel. America's the most obese nation. We should walk. Ride bikes. Save some on gas money. Which leads me to another thing. Gas. My preachers anniversary has just passed. He said he and his wife bought each other a gallon of gas. Obviously kidding, but I thought it was pretty funny.

I realize this has all been very random and poorly written. It was somewhat therapeutic though.
Love.