No No NO! No disapproval at all, and God, I am so sorry that it even remotely seemed that way. It was just that I didn't know it was that serious between you, it surprised me a little, but not that you did it...I know how serious that is to you and I would never EVER question your judgement...It was more of a...how do I explain it...Um, It shocked me, but in a good way. I'm happy for you because y'all are that serious, I'm so glad that this happened to you and Justin, I didn't know that y'all were that close, but I'm glad you are, and I'm glad to know now. I'm glad you shared this with Whitney and I, but you will never get any less than complete love and respect from me, Anna. I'm very sorry again, that I didn't make that completely and utterly clear to you earlier. I couldn't be happier for you.

Love You!!!

Whitty...where are you?? Need you! Love you too!!!

It is that serious, in some ways it always has been. I feel like I've known him from day one and he's known me. There are so many things that I've told him, so many sides of me that I've shown him, so much of me that I hide from the world that I don't hide from him. I don't need to. He makes me everything. The whole rainbow. Silly and serious and thoughtful and sarcastic and kind. He makes me think, he makes me laugh, he makes me try. I'm more of myself because of him. He's more because of me. I love him enough to give him something I've guarded and treasured for the last 20 years, and you know it wasn't on a whim. You know me better than that. Maybe you're just surprised, maybe I'm just defensive, but it felt like disapproval. It felt like my Deborah was thinking less of me and that, well that just about brings a tear to my eye. It hurts.

I'm Baaaaaccckkk. Hello Hello Hello.

How are you guys doing? Everything is ok here, I guess. Just school, and sleep...and school...and Damien. He's taking me to the 3 Doors Down concert Saturday, he's getting better and better at this getting gifts thing..Ring for Christmas, concert for my birthday. :)

Damien went to Charleston after Basic training, he says it was nice, but I've never been.

Congrads to both of your brothers! lol. Mine are...doing the same stuff that they've been doing. lol, they get no love.

Got you're e-mail, Mama and if you're happy, then I'm happy. You're an adult and whatever decisions you make are very well respected by me. (Cuz I love ya! lol)
I didn't know that you and Justin were THAT serious though, kind of shocked me a little...had to read that part a few times...I was like...whoa. That's great, though. We all deserve the little, and I mean LITTLE happiness that comes into our lives...we've all had rough ones.

Whitty, I love you and all your amazingness...is amazingness a word? Probably not, but I like it. You so deserve the inner happiness and I really wish I could just give it to you, lol, but it doesn't seem to be that easy. How are things going with your parents? You know we're here if you need us, I have no problem hopping in the car and bringing my cute ass to Tenn just cuz you needed me to. No Problems What So Ever...remember that.

I need you both to do me a favor...SMILE! Y'all are to great of people to not smile. :) Life hasn't really been going my way lately, with the baby and all...in fact, I try not to think about it at all...hurts less that way, but it helps to know that you guys are here, no matter what. Helps to know that I can either get on here and share my pain with you and know that someone understands and that I understand yours, or I can get on here and see that you're doing great and it makes me feel a lot better.

I don't know where that came from, I'm in a sappy, giddy mood today...must be the weather or something. lol.

Spring break is definitely on...are y'all coming down here? Or are we just positive on the fact that we're getting together? Damien says he can't wait to actually MEET y'all. lol. I'll get the dates of when school lets out ASAP...I have them around here somewhere...

Thurs-Apr-17 til Mon-Apr-28

Then...I have to go back to hell. lol

Gotta go, guys. Talk later!!

Love Love Love

I hate this, because I know you guys go through it with me, too, but I really wish there was someone else here talking back to me instead of big old computer nothingness.

We went to a really nice restaurant - I'm back to Charleston - that was named after a dog. I can't remember the name, but I know it was a dog, and I know why it was a dog. We also went to a place called Bovine's that was wonderful. They didn't really serve beef, but they had the best crab cakes ever and the waiter was hot. He hit on me and my aunt was like, Awww he's hitting on you!

I don't know why, but whenever I go out with my whole family, waiters and busboys just flock to me. It makes no sense. They never do it any other time, never. But once you stick in my grandparents or aunt and uncle *BOOM* I'm the best thing since sliced bread, it's freaky.

They also had really good pizza that was made in a kiln; it doubled as entertainment if you sat at the bar. All in all, it's a nice city. Fairly clean in the ritzier part, but I didn't really get to go exploring much so I'm not sure what it's like once you get out of the tourist zone.

Speaking of brothers and jobs, Tom was offered a full timed position as a producer at the radio station where he's been working. I'm not sure what station it is, but it's a big one up in the Twin Cities and it's a big deal for him to get the job. It was a big deal for him to get any job there considering he had absolutely no experience or credentials to speak of, I mean, lord, he's a history major who's worked in food and sports, how on earth does that translate to radio?

He also has a 32 year old girlfriend, continuing what my father called the O'Connor tradition of dating older women.

I turned to Justin and said, I guess I'm the older woman.

It was a very funny moment that typing will never, ever do justice. Just the look on Justin's face, and my parents', absolutely hilarious, especially because I wasn't trying to be funny at all, I just said it.

I'm sick. For the the last few weeks all of my friends have been sick with this pleghmy hacking cough and I've been fine. I started to feel sick at the beginning, but I took the DayQuil and nipped it in the bud. Until yesterday when it reared its ugly head and "nipped" me right back. It's not too bad yet, but they were all sick for weeks, some of them are *still* sick, and I can only use the DayQuil/NyQuil for three days and then I have to take a whole week off before I can take it again otherwise I'll end up with rebound headaches and trust me when I say that those would be much, much worse.

Just had a minor heart attack. Thought my computer was going to freeze. Again.

I hope you guys got my e-mail. If not, let me know. I might be on here a little more than usual. Between my cold and the ungodly amount of snow outside - about a foot - I'm pretty much stuck here. Love to my girls. No kisses or hugs, don't want to contaminate.